Innermost necessity

(Sri Guru and his Grace.Srila Sridhara Maharaja) "You may punish me, O cloud, you may punish me. If a thunderbolt comes, I'll be nowhere. You can throw down thu...nder or you can give me water. But how much can I drink with my small beak? A flood of rain may come. O, Lord of the poor, Lord of the helpless, you can give me a drop of your devotion, or you may punish me like anything." He is always praying for water. The cloud may satisfy him immediately or by sending a thunderbolt it may finish him, and efface him from the earth. The bird has no other alternative by nature. So, he says, "My position is also like that bird. O, Krsna, you may finish me, destroy me, efface me from the world, or you may save me by only a drop of your grace. I won't search after my satisfaction in the mud. That is finished, I will never go back to search my fortune in the earth, in the mundane. I am already fixed to do or die. Either I must receive a drop of your grace, or you may finish me." In this way, Srila Rupa Goswami prays that Krsna's mercy will descend like rain from the clouds, and not only quench his thirst, but bathe him, satisfy his utmost hankering, and fulfill his innermost necessity. So, we should never search for our fortune in the mud; we must always look to the high sky and pray for Sri Guru and his Grace.